okay well, you might actually be wondering why the song 'I'M NOT OKAY(I PROMISE) BY M.C.R is playing..... guess what?? it's simple... that's how i feel today..... i'm not o-fucking-kay now!!! wanna know why??!! well let's just say... i am feeling this way because of some GREATFUL people in my life who just loves to contribute to all the fuss.... yep! and i've got a poem too.... i wrote in like 10 minutes flat as i opur my whole heart out to it...
*here it is *
during my past few years in my life,
i realised one thing in mind...
friendship can never really last...
true friends can past away so fast!
they tell you secrets,
you tell them yours...
i guess you can never really trust them at all!
once in clicks, now seperated
best friends gone apparated...
behind your back you didn't know,
a knife they've stabbed deep, deep below.
you'll realise it only when its too late...
for they've just called you "bitch, we hate!!"
now all alone....
you start to cry,
pretty soon, you're ready to die...
friendship wilting, once forever....
now deleted... not ever forever...
hmm... i guess friendship dosen't last at all...
as i had just began to fall.
(written by me 12 august 11.45)
yeah...well, i hope you understand how i feel right now... but if you're offended...
heck care it's my life!!!! ~haiz~ if you want to leave a hate message feel free to do so..... yeah... that's how i feel.... i'm just gonna keep quiet and stuff....
well, enough of the sad stuff!!!
alright.... as school starts to end... my sadness subsidedd as i head down for recess with them... yeah seriously... then i stayed back for nothing and coz i felt like it and all... i hang out with sharifa, alicia, tina and atiqah after eating... OMG my stomach hurts so much after talking with them... sharifah told us some crazy stuff and jokes too... cool, i got 'in touch' with another click.... but i don't want to be an extra to them so i kept to myself.... i also got to talk alot more to annabel nowadays... i guess she seem to understand me.... *shrugs* i don't know but i'm beginning to believe what rae said to me last year... i regret getting too close now... *recalls rae telling her stuff(secret) * i should've taken her word... but now i guess i learnt it the 'hard' way
okay, that's practically what happened.... i also hope you visit http://www.wimp.com/swearing/ it's funny and cute at the same time yet its full of fuck...................................... and i'd like to say it loud and proudly.... "FUCK THE FUCKING MOTHER-FUCKERS!!!!" yeah that came from the video... hahaha i just felt like typing that down..... well, hope i didn't assault anyone.... coz i'm pretty much hurt myself through my point of view that is........ go roy! go son! you can beat your record dudes!! well, that's it... hahaha i like saying well today.... well, *there i go again* bye!
CRIMSON VELVET